Author: Paige Wyatt
people keep telling me how nice i am
which is good because
i have been trying to be better
i want to turn my cheek
let positivity roll off my tongue
let sweetness encompass my being
conscious effort has gotten me this far
but in spite of all this effort
they want me vengeful
they want me to sink my teeth in
and give them a piece of my mind
be harsher to them than they were to me
or worse
they want me to believe them
when they say things like
i just dont get it
youre way hotter than her
have you seen how many men look at you
and while their lovely words
fuel me for a while
i think these people sometimes forget that
just because
i get told how pretty i am
that i have a bangin body
that my lips are the kind
anyone should want to kiss
and yes of course i like to hear that
it is not that i couldnt use the compliments
we all could
it is just that these same people
look at me with envy when i say things like
well yes maybe i am prettier
and maybe i look better in
his favorite dark wash skinny jeans
and maybe just maybe he accidentally
dreams of kissing me some nights
but
what do we know about her heart
how can we be so sure that she isnt good for him
maybe the curves of her body draw out roads
he didnt know his fingertips needed to travel
maybe her lips drip words about him
sweeter than any honey he has tasted
maybe it is not a temporary taste for her nectar
maybe she is exactly what he has been searching for
and maybe
just maybe
she speaks to his soul
in ways i or anyone but her
could have never imagined
these people also do not understand
how badly i want him to listen
how i want him to take in every note
she plays on her heart strings
how i want him to know
what actual earth shattering true love feels like
i can never seem to find the words
to explain that i really am okay
with being a stepping stone
i am genuinely okay
knowing that i helped him see in me
what he was not looking for
and use it like a star map
to find whomever
was meant to complete
his inner constellation
if he and i are not meant
to explore the same galaxies